Day 77: Sharing

Day 77/100 of happiness...

Yes, it's been a few days since I posted a DoH post, and some may consider that slacking. I've realized my 100 days of happiness postings aren't turning into consecutive days but as I'm reaching the final stretch of these 100 days, I am finding myself waiting until I feel truly inspired to share something. That doesn't mean my other days don't have happy moments (or even a lot of happiness) in them. My posts are turning into more deeper happiness moments I guess. 25 Deeper Day of Happiness?? ;)

Today I found extreme happiness in sharing. And in being a listener. There are things in life we share with very few people... And sometimes after we share these things, we are shocked that we shared them! "Wow! That was so personal. I don't know why I just shared that information." Is a common exclamation. But in that space of vulnerability, the listener usually has the opportunity to then share something of deep personal value in return. Unintentionally, sometimes, a safe space is created and within that safeness we allow the unfolding of parts of us that usually stay very close and covered. There is something so liberating about exchanging words we usually don't speak with someone and then being the receiver of words not usually spoken by another. These are some of the beautiful moments in life when intimacy is spontaneously created in the midst of a busy day and a connection between two people grows. =}

Nostalgia

I wonder why we experience nostalgia  ... Sometimes it is triggered by a song, or a comment made by someone, and then sometimes it comes in from out of the blue, and settles on our shoulder. Our eyes get a bit  distant, our minds start to drift, a small smile forms on our lips, a breath fills our lungs, and we slowly exhale. Before we realize it we have drifted into a moment in time, and although we are in this moment, we are transported to that moment. Our mind is filled with a story and our body is swept through with emotion. Sometimes the story before us is long and captivatin. . . and sometimes it goes by very quickly. . . But even as the story fades back to where it came from, we are now left in this moment with a slight longing still hanging in the air. 

Nostalgia is defined as: a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations. 

I'm always amazed when I see anything involving The Wizard of Oz, because it evokes so much nostalgia in me. I wonder often why this movie seems to consistently weave itself throughout my life story. Is there any one else out there so impacted by a movie? I wish I could describe the numerous times and unfathomable ways that this movie appears in my days. I've started to view it as a bit of a Guide Post, or something like that, to point out I'm going the right way. Kinda like a Kudos from "the unknown" or a smile from the angels… It's similar to what the movie Interstellar alluded to. But alas, there are questions in this life that we won't find answers to until we pass on. Hopefully they await us there... 

Takes Practice

Somedays positive thoughts flow into the mind as if from a deep eternal spring within. . . . And other days it is an extreme challenge to keep negative thoughts at bay. They creep up into the mind, silently, and before one can realize it, the mind is full of "Oh no! But what if's...?" And it takes a courageous, diligent effort to fight back those swarming negative thoughts and choose to replace them with positive ones! Even if those positive ones feel shallow and silly. . . with hopes that the effort of controlling the wandering mind, one will stumble upon the eternal spring of positiveness and the thoughts will once again flow with positivity. 

Day 76: 2 week countdown

Oh boy! Airline ticket purchased! Two weeks from today I will be on a flight south to begin an epic road trip back up north! My life has been a chaotic whirlwind of a million things that fall through and never manifest into my reality. . . 

It feels amazing to have something that was thought of months ago actually happening. So this is what it feels like to be able to plan things out in life and actually see the fruits! 

Happy, happy, happy!! =D

Day 75: DMV love

I was sitting in CO last week with friends and order an adult beverage and the waitress said, "I'm sorry. I'm not supposed to serve you. Your license has expired." Wow! TSA let me on the plane to get to CO (which I am SO thankful for!!) but my waitress caught the mishap. I was anxious to get back through TSA to get home and slipped right on through with no mention of it (thankfully!). Well the other night I went to have dinner at a friend's and wanted to bring wine and the gal at the liquor store wouldn't serve me. I mean, it is me in the photo and im obviously older than 21 considering my license expired on the day I turned 32... But c'est le vie...

So today I went in to the dreaded DMV and was out with my new license in 20 mins. I love Anchorage's DMV... Now what shall I do with the hours of free time I have ahead of me since I'm not sitting at the DMV??? ;)

Day 74: Transformation

Cranial level 4 completed today. It was a whirlwind of a time here in Colorado and, as always, I am left with an abundance of gratitude for the souls I met in class. It amazes me how profoundly we can effect someone or be affected in such a short time, by being full present with one another. 

"Hi. I don't know you. Here's the window to my open soul. Be careful with me... I'm vulnerable." "Hi. Here's my window too. I'm also vulnerable and weary, but willing." And in that space connection happens, and healing begins and all things shift. Carl Jung's words ring so true for me today. 

Day 73: Itaska Love

Today I got to eat lunch in a t-shirt and have the warmth of the glorious sun on my skin. I probably looked liked a lizard laying out on a rock basking in the vitamin D. I did make eye contact with a lot of passers by and got a lot of return smiles. :)

Class went great! I connected with two woman and we were a rock star trio. Couldn't ask for anything better! 

Dinner was a delicious meal full of laughter and tales with peeps I haven't seen in 15 years!

And tonight, my friend's roomie is out of town so I have another snuggle buddy!! Itaska, the German Shepard/St Bernard mix. Amazingly cool dog.

Happy, happy, happy!

I'm a big fan of Friday the 13th! Always has been :)

Day 72: Snuggles

So I had a fantastic first day of class (SER 2- aka Cranial level 4)!! It's so wonderful to be surrounded by people who speak your language. Cranial classes are some of my most favorite places in the entire world. My whole being feels charged and happy!

I'm staying at a buddy's house and he happens to be dog sitting for a friend of his that is out of town and I am the lucky one who gets a snuggle buddy!!! It's been so long since I slept next to a pooch. I had forgotten how comforting it is... The warmth and their breathing and their little doggie dreams. I am warm and cozy and my heart is happy.  :)

Day 71: Daylight

After an awesome 14 year reunion, a 3:30am bedtime and a 6:30am wake up alarm, I gotta say it was amazing to see daylight at 6:30am again.... Until we are out of the darkness of an Alaskan winter, we don't always know how dark it is... 

Another metaphor for life? ;)

Day one of Cranial, I am ready! Time to go dance in the magical space of Being Fully Present and meet who's there to show up with me. :)

Day 70: Time to Charge

Cranial Sacral level 4 (otherwise known as SER 2) Heeerrrrreeee I Cooooome! Oh boy, oh boy! 

Not much else in life gets me fired up the way this massage modality does. It rocks my world and then some!! I am so stoked to be learning more and to be seeeeped in the goodness starting tomorrow for the following 4 days! 

Time for this gal to get all charged up again. I am so excited I can help but sit here in the airport with a silly grin on my face.... :)

Day 69: Active Thinking

We spend sooooooo much time thinking! (Does it ever really stop?) When we start paying attention to the thoughts we ARE thinking, now that is when shifts can happen. I've been very actively paying attention to my thoughts for months now. Being very picky about which thoughts I'll let repeat in my head...

And as my external life is starting to match my internal thoughts from the previous months of Active Thinking, I am finding myself filled with amazement of what unfolds before my eyes in my days! 

When we start to live the life we dream of (and by dream, I mean THINK of)... we might find ourselves thinking, "This can't be real? Do I deserve this?? This can't last." And at that exact moment we have to make a choice.... And the choice is to CHANGE those thoughts back to the ones we want to have happen in our lives! We are so scared to say YES to ourselves... Yes to accepting wonderful things to happen to us... Yes to the dreams we want to experience! 

We need to get out of our own way and keep thinking of the life we want and then ALLOW into our reality!!  

Open up and welcome your dream into your every day... Then be prepared to be Amazed 

Little reminders

This is a really great article about 11 old fashioned relationship habits. It's strange that we need to be 'reminded' about some of the most special aspects of living life. . . But it's a good read! I hope you enjoy it too :)

http://expandedconsciousness.com/2014/07/13/11-old-fashioned-relationship-habits-we-should-bring-back/

Day 68: Life Changer

My whole world shifted today. During the early morning yoga class today, music was played for the first time and Trevor Hall came out over the speakers!!! My heart chakra burst wide open, my mouth couldn't stop singing, I danced and shimmied and grooved through every intense posture filled with ecstatic bliss!!! And all of that happened before 8am.... !!! 

World shifted, mind blown, heart wide open!! Why I never thought of that before, I will never know. All that matters is that it has been experienced now and will forever change my life. Trevor Hall is a magical musician and I am thrilled to do yoga tomorrow (on my own... In the morning..... JUST so I can play the Chapter of The Forest album again and reach bliss!)

Boom!